Saturday, May 24, 2014

My story and picturebook of running: How I learned to finally run free


"My" running road

 Running.  I don't do it to lose weight or to be healthy.  I do it because it is something I've always dreamed of doing.  It brings me freedom, increases my gratitude, and makes my moments absolutely happy. 

When I was an early teenager, two older girls in my neighborhood ran often.  I had SO much wild admiration for them.  I respected how they used their bodies in such a beautiful way.   I grew up experiencing many outdoor activities but running stood alone, on a pedestal, as something exceptional. I admired running more than any other physical endeavor.  I've always held running as something great and sacred.  I feel like my feelings toward running have always been a part of me. 

 I tried running a handful of times but it never clicked for me.  Physically, my body didn't want to run, but emotionally and spiritually I wanted to run and run and never stop.  To me, running was beautiful, whole, and simple.  We use the power of our own bodies, propel energy forward, then simply bound ahead as we were created to do.  In life, we run away from things that anger us and frighten us; and we run toward things that excite us and energize us.  Running wholly encompasses our emotions from one end to the other.  Running is the joining of our physical self with our emotional and spiritual self.

Later on, after I married and had three precious boys, I enjoyed the beauty of running once again through my children.  I vividly remember watching my boys run as toddlers.  My heart was most happy and most content while my boys were running.  If those little legs were pumping, arms flying, and faces beaming, it confirmed that they were both healthy and happy.  And in that very moment, my world was perfect because nothing made me more content than happy and healthy kids.  I would feel this way over and over again throughout their childhood every time I saw them run...playing tag, chasing dogs, following a ball, escaping a tackle, racing toward something exciting.  These were my best moments.  And of course, those moments centered around running.  To this day, my most peaceful times are watching my boys run.





Several years ago, during our family's very difficult and horrible life season, I turned to running.   I ran on a treadmill to work through the pain.  The desperation and agony my soul felt could only be released on that treadmill.  I ran hard and fast, always crying, until my knees literally buckled.  I habitually did this for months because I didn't know how else to handle the raging ache within. Obviously this habit of running wasn't wise and was short-lived.  So the running stopped.


Awhile later, I attempted running again, this time for health benefits.  To motivate me, I would close my eyes and visualize my dreams.  My big dream was to run long distances with my boys.  THAT is what excited my spirit and what my soul longed for.  I would slowly patter on the treadmill, eyes squeezed tight, and visualize my boys being teenagers, running with me.  My goal was to be able to run with my boys when they were older.  In my mind, I saw it all.  I saw 3 tall blond boys, running with their mama.  However, when I opened my eyes, I saw my current reality was far from that dream.  Physically, I was at rock bottom, unable to run a mile.  And my boys were still little toddlers.  But that is what I would think of for motivation every time I attempted a run.  I am amazed that the dream I had all those years ago, has come true!  In fact, the power of visualization truly blows my mind.  It works!

once upon a time they were toddlers...

...and now they run with me



Finally, after years of tucking away the silent admiration and dream of running, I had a personal breakthrough.  This time I didn't try running to lose weight or to escape negative emotions.  I tried it because I simply wanted to run.  During a time of huge emotional growth, I realized that I didn't need to lace up my shoes and run as fast as I could, dying with every breath before collapsing before the end of the street.  I learned that I could drop all of those perfectionist high standards and I could just be.  However far or fast I ran would be good enough.  I could just exist and enjoy life, I didn't need to be the best or run the fastest.  I saw it with more simplicity:  if I ran, then I was a runner.  I just relaxed and celebrated the gift of moving my body.  This time, when I attempted running, I started slow. At first I ran slower than some people walked.  But I leaned forward into a running movement and that was sufficient.   My boys would walk alongside me and encourage me (yes, their walking pace matched my run). Then when they got bored, they would skip home, grab a bike or scooter and find me again on the road.  "You can do it mama, you're getting good!".



My oldest, Cameron, never left my side.  He patiently trotted along side me every time.  Sometimes he would look over at me, and if he noticed I was struggling, he would push my back, helping me along.   Cameron is my consistent running partner and he hopes to do a race with me soon!


 Those boys blessed my spirit and breathed life into my new found success with running.  I never twisted their arms to go with me, they just joined in enthusiastically.  Their hearts were tender and encouraging toward me.  I am so grateful for their support.

I have since done a little bit of racing shared here and here.  And recently I raced my first half marathon!  I'll be sharing about that soon.

Before last training run for my half!



These days, one of my favorite things to do is run.  My heart is head over heels in love with running. When on vacation,  I try to run everywhere we go.

Running at Lake Powell

Running in Las Vegas

Running in boring hotels!


I am crazy about the gift of running!
Running has always been something I dreamed of and now I get to experience it. 
Running makes my soul shine.  
I feel like the happiest girl alive when I am outside, hearing nothing but the sound of my shoes hitting the road.  
I don't know what the future holds, but for today, I think I'll run.  


"My"  running road




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Wednesday, May 14, 2014

? Is it a BOY or GIRL ? Reveal Party Time, a Bit of Classic Twist on a Current Trend



Gender Reveal parties are filled with question and wonder.  The high anticipation brings an excited energy to the party!  I styled one of these fun events recently for some good friends of ours.  I was given a sealed envelope, straight from the doctor's office, holding the secret to the baby's sex.  Gosh, I love secrets! No other party guests knew, not even the mama and daddy to be.

I have a secret that no one knows...


Let's do this!


I wanted to keep the color theme the classic boy blue and girl pink.  The new mama's favorite colors are black and white so I added those into the mix too.  This party style was just a hint of classic mixed with modern black and white.


For the dessert table I made homemade Oreos because that is a favorite cookie of the new daddy! I also made M&M cookies, coordinating the party colors into the cookies.





I used a variety of pink, blue, black, and white treats on the table too. 
 I wanted to incorporate the "classic" tried and true candies to follow the classic theme...
salt water taffy, jelly beans, licorice, and lollipops.  




SO in love with these homemade black heart lollipops from etsy!


The gorgeous cake was made from our local cake shop, The Cake Cottage.  
I have used The Cake Cottage for MANY of my events and they always exceed my expectations. In fact, the bomb cake I ordered from them a few years ago went viral on Pinterest!  They decorate beautiful cakes and they will happily work with you to create you dream cake.
Follow them on facebook here!



To maintain the classic theme, the Cake Cottage tied ribbon around each cake tier.


I used this adorable paper heart garland from Sweet Kaity Shop on etsy.  Sweet Kaity has an absolutely perfect selection of retro and classic party supplies.  Her products give the perfect handmade look to parties!  I am in love. 


The best party decor is ALWAYS real flowers, OH yes! 
...fresh blue and pink hydrangeas in super tall black vases.  


For the backdrop I ordered a huge poster size picture of our party stars, Nick and Tani.  I decorated it with the fun paper fan trend.  These paper fans add such a pretty and playful element to parties!  I ordered these from KaLice Events.  These versatile black and white fans from KaLice have been featured on HWTM and many other party places.  KaLice Events is extra pleasant to work with and they will happily work with you on fulfilling your personalized party needs.  I will be using these fans again and again, so watch out! ;)


 I usually just tie up the edges of tablecloths with big ribbon.



We ordered pizza for the main meal and I made some tasty Italian side dishes.  The pizza buffet table was actually my favorite part about this party!


 I wanted to dress up the pizza so I used our collection of white Rosanna pedestals.

Pizza on a pedestal. 
Perfect.  




These super cute kids cups are also from Sweet Kaity, the shop I shared about above.  To see more of Sweet Kaity's fun stuff, check out my Valentine's blog post.   These cups were ideal for this party, adding to our classic look and of course complementing the blue boy/pink girl idea.  And I love the matching straws too!



Dig in!


Cutest lil party guests...


For side dishes I made a tasty Italian salad with a couple of homemade salad dressings.





I also made a hot artichoke dip and garlic bread with oils. 




For drinks I made layered punch.  
I have made a few different variations of this drink through the years. 

 

See here for the HOW TO.  
Other layered drinks on Moore Minutes:


Boy or Girl Layered Punch


It's a party all over this house...



Tani, the new mama, sent out cute Guns and Glitter party invites so I made an entrance sign to match.
I glittered some plastic water guns too.  But they fell apart in 2 seconds. ;)




My mom wraps beautiful pressies! 



Ok, now about the reason we are throwing a big party anyways...

what is this lil babe going to be?

Choose a team and let's tug-a-war!


Team Pink


or, Team Blue



Let's find out!   I stuffed a giant-sized QUESTION MARK piñata with all one color. Then I tied a bundle of different ribbons on the end.   Nick and Tani would pull the ribbon to see either blue or pink!


What is in here?


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It's raining BLUE.  
Let's paint this place BLUE.

Hooray!



I think they still are finding blue confetti in their home sweet home.


The treats I stuffed the piñata with:

a blue sugar powder candy bottle
blue bubble gum
confetti stars
paper accordion confetti 
blue mints
blue crunch bars
blue hershey kisses
blue bouncy balls
blue glow sticks


The kids dug through the piñata goodies and stuffed their pockets with treasures.  The rest of the night was spent celebrating BOY style, with blue glow stick bracelets on!

Nick and Tani, are you ready for this??

Please put down the sugar.

Nick and Tani are living in such a blessed season of life, 
binding together, building a family, 
with a foundation of strength and resilient love. 
 It is a beautiful thing to watch a storybook unfold.  
This is life,
 life well lived.

We love you guys!



Vendors:
Tiered Ribbon Cake from Cake Cottage
Custom made Piñata from AbitaAchie
Classic Party decor: kids cups, heart garland, and more from Sweet Kaity Shop
Black and White party paper fans from KaLice Events
Pizza from Pizza Hut
Custom lollipops from Vintage Confections

*The government makes me say that I was compensated for this blog post.  However, all thoughts and ideas are my own and always will be.

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